「Ah, take this one, too.」
She handed me a plate with red liquid inside, which I could tell was supposed to be a water bowl.
…No, what?
「Why? Weren’t we done for the day?」
「That was my intention, yes, but… I happened to get in the mood.」
「…Was this why you bought cake?」
「Was it, I wonder?」
I set the plates on the floor and stood up. It would be difficult for her to eat without a stand to put them on, but there weren’t any to use, so there was no choice.
I felt a tightness in my chest and a weight in my stomach. It wasn’t unpleasant, though. I took a deep breath, and my chest squeezed even tighter. My sense of reason had broken. I couldn’t even say “no” anymore.
「Alright, Sera. I’ll let you have your cake. Now sit, would you?」
She did as I said and sat on the floor.
I had only recently learned how good it felt to make someone submit to me. And that look in her eyes — so overjoyed at being treated like she wasn’t a human — was the most beautiful thing in the world.
I would never have thought that this was the true nature that laid underneath the common sense covering my heart. I’d always been one to want to see happiness on others’ faces, to derive my joy from being of help. But right now, I was prioritizing my pleasure above even that.
When I looked at that collar and leash, I remembered.
I remembered how her face was awash with joy and pleasure. I knew deep down how good it would feel to make a mess out of her by my own hand. And so, I pulled on her leash as if to make her tumble further and further into the depths.
「Wait. Not yet. …Okay. Now, you can eat.」
Heeding my words, she got onto her hands and knees and stuck her face into the plate.
It was so unsightly and shameful that I could almost laugh… But, beyond all else, she was adorable. We had been taught by the adults in our lives to not eat like this. In the end, though, wasn’t this the proper way for all living things to eat? This sight was, surely, one of her laying her instincts bare and indulging in pleasure.
I stroked her back.
I couldn’t feel the warmth of her body through her blazer. She had already gone this far, had already thrown away her humanity. So wasn’t it strange that she was still wearing clothes?
「How does it taste?」
At my question, she simply smiled, her face covered in cream.
What an animalistic expression.
This was a face that nobody else knew, not even her friends or parents. Just looking at her made my stomach churn.
It was far, far, more beautiful than the smile she wore as the human known as Sorahashi Sera.
「Good. Eat as much as you want. …But first—」
I wiped her mouth with my finger, and then brought that same finger up to my lips.
It was sweet.
Sweet enough to numb my brain, sweet enough to melt my heart.
「Let’s get these clothes off. The room’s so warm. It’ll be much too hot if you have them on, yes?」
This was insane.
However, such thoughts were ultimately based in common sense. My instincts told me that I wanted to feel the warmth of her body as soon as possible, so much that I could barely sit still.
She wordlessly got on her knees. I gently took off her blazer. It was slightly bigger than mine and a little worn out, possibly because she went out so much.
Even though we had the same uniforms, they still reflected a sense of individuality. However, that was a fleeting thing that disappeared once the clothes were taken off. When all the superficialities were removed, what remained might be what we could call our true, innate self.
As I folded the blazer up, I noticed her staring at me.
Her eyes, muddy with countless emotions all mixed together, were telling me to hurry up and continue. I tossed the blazer on the floor and grabbed her blouse. I wanted to strip it all off so much that my hands were shaking and my breathing was rough.
When I took the blouse off, it revealed the pale skin underneath.
I was a little impressed at how clear her skin was. I touched her shoulder, feeling a slight warmth. She shivered, but showed no signs of resisting.
I gently touched her skirt. I had removed it for her that other day, so I didn’t have much difficulty doing it again. I put my hand on the metal fasteners like before and pulled the zipper down. Once that was gone, what remained was just her underwear.
It was cute.
The fancy sort, with elaborate patterns that I could never find myself buying. The kind that suited her. I didn’t care about that right now, though.
「Good job getting it all off. You’re being so good. There, there.」
When she properly did as I said, I had to praise her. She was my puppy, after all.
As my hands wandered around her whole body, I felt all sorts of sensations. Her hair was soft, her stomach was firm, and her legs were a bit sturdier than her stomach. I felt the life within the unevenness of her fine muscles and bones. Yeah. It was better this way after all, to pet her directly, not over her clothes.
I smiled.
「Come on. It would be a waste since you already made it, so have some tea, too.」
「Woof.」
Making a bunch of splashing sounds, she brought the rooibos tea to her mouth using her tongue. Her now-frantic appearance was so cute that I wanted to see more and more.
I took a sip from the cup that she had brought me.
A cup for me, and a plate for her. It was amusing how we were eating and drinking the same things, and yet, we were so different. However, even though I alone was the one making the expressions of a human, inside I was just like her — a beast craving for pleasure.
I couldn’t even tell how the tea tasted. My heart was beating so hard, and my entire body was hot. More than the taste of tea, what I wanted was to burn the image of her into my mind. Even as I tried to have a bite of my cake, that was all I could think.
「Happy birthday, Sera. I’ll feed you by hand so that it’s easier for you to eat.」
I picked up what was left of her cake with my hand and offered it to her.
「Woof, arf.」
「Happy? I’m glad.」
She looked so happy that if she had a tail, it would probably be wagging. Without any hesitation, she brought her face up to my hand.
Her face touched my palm. As I watched the cake slowly disappear, I used my other hand to stroke her back. Although occasionally interrupted by the sensation of her underwear, that hand filled up with the warmth of her body.
My heart was full of the same feeling I got when I saw other people enjoying my cooking.
I thought I took care of Mizuki because I didn’t want to see her be sad. But in reality, it was probably because it made me feel good. It was probably the same with all the sorts of things I did for Yume and Mutsuki.
Maybe I had been led around by my instincts from the very beginning.
None of that mattered now, though.
「There’s still some cake left on my hand. Eat every last crumb, Sera.」
When I said that, she started to slowly lick my palm. It was a pleasant, lukewarm sensation. I wasn’t aware because I didn’t usually get licked by other people, but it seemed that the tongue was able to convey a variety of emotions. Right now, she was awfully excited and seemed to delight in doing what I said.
「…You licked it clean. Good job.」
I gently laid my hand on her cheek.
「Ahaha, what a face. Your pleasure is written all over it. You’re melting.」
「…Woof.」
「It’s okay to speak like a human now. I have no clue what you’re trying to tell me.」
「…Are we already done?」
She spoke.
「Take a good look. My mouth is all sticky, and there’s still some cake left, you know?」
Maybe I was still underestimating her.
Yeah. She wouldn’t be satisfied with just this. After all, she was used to being doted on. There was no point if I didn’t scold, discipline, and spoil her even more. I let out a sigh and pulled on her leash.
「…You’re right. Sera, see this mess you’ve made. You’ve been a bad girl, haven’t you?」
「…」
「Bad girls need to be trained until they stop being naughty… Isn’t that right?」
Still pulling on the leash, I wiped off her mouth with my fingers and put it in between her lips.
「You’d better not bite me. If you do, I’ll bite you too.」
She obediently licked my fingers for a while, and then…
「Ow.」
She bit me just enough to cause a little bit of pain.
The eyes looking up at me were filled with expectation.
「…Bad girl.」
I took my fingers out of her mouth and ran them down her shoulder. She began to tremble in surprise, so I moved my touch over to her back and down to her legs.
「Where would you like to be bitten? It’s a special occasion, so I’ll let you decide.」
I ran my fingers along her spine. No matter where I bit her, it seemed like her skin would turn vibrantly red.
「Here? Or here? Or here, perhaps?」
「Where—wherever. Wherever you please, Master.」
「Hmm. Then here, I suppose?」
I lightly touched her underwear. Her body jumped a little more than before, and her legs trembled. I seductively felt at her rear, and then bit down on her shoulder.
Not expecting to be bitten there, she jumped in surprise and fell to the floor.
I didn’t bite that hard, but the marks were noticeable because her skin was so pale.
I shivered. She was always so confident, so mysterious, so beloved by everyone. And now I was making someone like that my puppy, biting her under the guise of discipline. It was obvious that this wasn’t normal at all. Even so, the thrill and pleasure continued to overflow.
Maybe we were both deviants.
This was surely inexcusable behavior. But that was precisely why it felt so good.
「Ahaha! That surprised you! You said to do whatever I wanted. What happened to that?」
It felt like it had been a long time since I’d laughed this loudly.
My voice sounded terribly immature.
Come to think of it, I’d been so busy taking care of Mizuki that I’d never acted this selfishly before.
Was my rebellious phase coming late?
In the first place, what was I even rebelling against?
「Hey. How does it feel to be disciplined just like you asked to be? This is what you always wanted, right?」
As I bit down on her other shoulder, her body began to tremble even more.
It was as if she was some sort of toy.
「Haha. Really… we’re such idiots. The both of us.」
I thought I’d be fine with living out a normal life. Passing by the same todays and tomorrows, I’d spend my time with my friends and then come home to that feeling that something wasn’t quite right. The times where I was satisfied with that already seemed so long ago.
In truth, maybe I had just wanted someone to come along and disrupt that everyday life.
I no longer had things I wanted to do, no more roles to fill. Everything from that time had drifted away into the air. I had broken it all into pieces. My desires had all been dug out. I had turned into a mess. I was sure that the expression that my face was uncontrollably contorting into was a disgusting sort of smile.
「That feels good, Master.」
「…Aha.」
It was disgusting. So disgusting. …It felt good.
It felt good to break. As I was right now, I couldn’t begin to imagine what tomorrow would be like, and I didn’t want to. If I indulged in all this pleasure that laid upon a thin layer of ice, all that awaited in my future was a death by drowning.
I thought that was okay, though.
I mean, this felt so good. To laugh like an idiot, do things that I shouldn’t do to others, and destroy all my false selves. It felt so, so, so good. I didn’t care if I wasn’t a big sister anymore, or if I was no longer offered any roles to fulfill.
As long as I could continue being her owner.
「…Then I’ll make you feel even better.」
I felt myself drowning. The water’s surface grew further and further away. I was sinking deeper and deeper, drowning in the dark, warm depths of the ocean.
We licked each others’ bodies, bit each other, and kept telling each other how pleasurable it all was. I was supposed to be disciplining Sera, but it felt more and more like I was the one being disciplined. It felt good, though, and my chest tightened.
Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my cheeks, but without knowing why that was, I continued to indulge in pleasure with her.
By the time the tears had dried I no longer remembered that feeling of being in celebration for her, nor did I remember that smile on her face when I had given her those picture books. Still, the waves of pleasure that continued to endlessly swirl in the depths of my stomach remained vividly clear.
I must be some sort of beast.
When I put back on the clothes that I had taken off so naturally, the bite marks on my body throbbed with pain. Feeling pain in those places that I had never felt it in before, it was as if my normal everyday life was slipping far away. When I saw Mutsuki and Yume tomorrow, would I be able to smile like usual?
My reflection on the screen of my phone looked just like Sera did — with a helpless smile on my face, as if the only thing on my mind was pleasure.
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